My sweet lovely daughter, how did you get so big so fast? I knew this was going to happen but I think... I don't know... I just thought I would still have a couple of years ahead to prepare myself. It's wonderful to see how articulate, intelligent and beautiful you have become but it's so hard to see you getting ready to fly away. I guess deep inside I still see you as my little baby, so fragile and dependable. Please don't get me wrong. I am very proud to see you grow. The thing is I was getting used to being needed. And now, you seem to need me less and less everyday. I used to look forward to that but I am not so sure anymore. I just need some time to process it. If I sometimes seem a little lost and I take a long time to make a decision as to letting you go somewhere or do something, please try to understand. This is also new to me and I was caught completely off guard. Remember, this is my first ride too! I am trying to figure it out as we go, because, truth...